Today you are ONE. I want to take a moment to say thank you…
Flooded with emotion, tears of joy, pride and nostalgia have now formed in my eyes. But here it goes anyways…You are my reason. Every morning, when I take you from your crib, you greet me with your big beautiful brown eyes, dancing in the light.
I hold you tightly, never wanting to let go.
When I am sad, you make me smile. You are perfect, Ev.
When I am scared, holding you reminds me I can be brave.
I didn’t quite know who I was or what I was here for until I became your mother. I tried on all sorts of hats before you came along. My friends and family sat and watched patiently…I couldn’t quite find a fit…You and your dad have helped me to know myself, and to figure out the kind of person I want to be…
I want to be someone you are proud of all of your life.
There is nothing I wouldn’t do for you, and no greater accomplishment in my life than being your mom. I make lots of mistakes, but because you deserve only the best, I keep going and try to do better with each new day.
Because of you, I chase my dreams as a photographer. I fall more in love with your dad with each new milestone we experience as a family. I have taken the time to learn about the foods we put in our bodies so that you will never go hungry and will be full of good health. I make time for fun, travel, and my relationships with my friends and family, and hope you will always make time for the things you love, too.
People say when you become a mom you can lose yourself, but you have helped me to find the balance that is my truest self.
I love you with all of my heart. Here is a video that celebrates YOU on your first birthday.
All my love,
PS- I started this blog a couple weeks after you were born to document the golden [and not so golden] moments that are our life. I hope someday you can look back and enjoy reading these reflections.
I took the photos of Everett under my brand, KELLY JO PHOTO. Photos of our family were taken by my very talented mother, Teri Kusilek.